For the last fifteen years, I have spent every day of my life worrying.
It doesn’t matter what happens; I obsess over what could have happened.
Last week, my mother-in-law moved in with us, and had it not been for the medical cannabis, I would have lost my cool. She has dementia, and she tried to go into the basement. All I could see was her tumbling down the steps. My anxieties were through the roof, which was the reason for my worrying. I got upset and pushed her away from the door and locked it. I wasn’t sure what to do when she yelled at me for kidnapping her and holding her hostage. I was really upset when she tried to call 911 and report me to the police. If I hadn’t had my medical marijuana to calm me down, I may have done more than raised my voice. I stayed calm and assured her I was only trying to keep her safe, and she slapped me. My initial reaction was to hold her hand back, but I was afraid of hurting her. She got through her tantrum soon after that, but it left me upset. I took hit on my medical marijuana vape pen and hid in the bathroom for about fifteen minutes; leaving my husband to deal with her. He gave me a hug when he got her back to bed, but it petrified me of how anxious I became when she yelled and tried to slap me. I’m trying to be patient, but it isn’t working. I can only hope my medical marijuana continues working and helping me to keep my anxieties in check.